Friday I was reminded on just how lucky I am to have you in my life. Our story and our journey have taught me that My worth isn't in a man, but it could be valued by a man. I have written many blogs and journal entries on what I thought it would be like; I never imagined it being so simple as someone just being so completely in love with me. I was used to this "us-against-the-world" method and I thought that was the true definition of love- overcoming the nay-sayers and fighting off the negative comments. Instead, with you I've learned that if God is in the mist of it then everyone will come in agreement with us. You didn't want perfect. You loved me when I was broken. I told you my story and you didn't run. You refused to walk away when I pushed you. You stayed in place not matter how many times I put you down and walked away. Your faithfulness to me out of a relationship mattered more than you know. You won my heart and I have no idea exactly when it happened, but it was obvious that my heart knew before my brain did. People have asked me what you did and although it may be simple my answer is this: he truly loves me.
Mr. Arroyo,
You have my heart. Completely. I have never felt safer with anyone else. You have protected me, not only physically, but you also demand honor and respect for me from others as well. You cover me with prayer. I love that you never hesitate to pray for me when I ask you- you simply do it. You've given me the opportunity to be myself, no matter how dorky or obnoxious. You speak about our future and it doesn't scare me. I should be freaked out by all the marriage talk but instead I join in on it. I would follow you anywhere God called you, just like I know that you would follow me too. We aren't perfect but we cover each other with love and prayer. I love that. I have truly found what I was looking. You are Mr. Not-So-Right. I didn't want a human Ken doll. My whole life I just searched for someone who simply just loved me.
And now you're here. I have had some of the greatest laughs with you. I've had the privilege of finally going on date! and it was all thanks to you. I love that you still look at me the same way that you did in the beginning. Your selflessness is amazing. You continue to win my heart everyday.
Mr. Arroyo,
I'm glad that we get to go on the greatest journey God has set before us. And I'm glad I get to hold your hand along the way.
I love you.
Jess
