Lead the way

"Lead the way". Ive told God many times that He has my heart, that He's got full control, and countless times I've said "in You I trust".


But I failed.


I didn't understand how to trust God FULLY without having to ruin his plan with my genius plans, or how to give up my control over situations and let Him fight my battles. That is until I ran into some pictures of when I was younger. I realized that in those pictures my world, my security, my superhero, my safety, was my father. I would never question why we didn't have a house. I never question why our christmas tree was extremely small. I never questioned why I didn't have my own room, or why we lived in a bad neighborhood. To me, I had everything in the world. I didn't lack anything, so I thought. I had everything I needed because I had a father who I thought gave me the World.


So why couldn't I feel like that with the God who created me? Why did I always feel the need to tell him "but God, I need..."? Why couldn't I let him lead the way without having to pull his arms and tell him "You're going the wrong way"? Simply because I didn't understand that He IS my father, and I am His daughter. As a daughter I need to trust him. I need to know that while God is "away working" he is actually putting my life together and all he wants me to do is focus on the moment in front of me, and not worry. He wants me to be anxious in nothing.

If you dont understand why certain things are happening or have happened...you don't need to! God just wants you to trust him. Enjoy the dance of life. Let him lead the way.