No one to impress

I had a conversation with a good friend today about where God has taken us out of and where life is now taking us. In the middle of that conversation I realized: I have no one to impress.

I had spent a good portion of my life going through the motions and always making sure I fit the standards of other people. I had to pray the right way, dress the part, talk the part, even my worship had to "fit the mold". Even with that mentality, I was never good enough. I never made the cut. God was still "working" on me. Someone was always better me. If I protested, it was because I was jealous.

Or so I was told.

I came home today and realized that the majority of my happiness, the glow, the reason I smile now is because I realize the woman I am, the one I have ALWAYS had the potential to be. You see, with others I never made the cut. I couldn’t change their mind no matter how high I jumped or what mountains I moved. This year I saw how strong I am, how extravagant my worship is, how powerful my words are, how I don't only make the cut but am worthy of being born for such a time as this, that God would create me with a purpose for my generation. I realized that when life stopped being about people pleasing and how it started being about making sure I was in the will God, I became the happiest I have ever been.

I have no regrets. I have no bitterness. Through all that unnecessary people pleasing, God had a purpose. My heart bursts with joy at the thought of all that I can become now, and I have my past to thank for that. I know who NOT to become.

There is no one to impress now, and that in itself has impressed more people than ever.